yesterday I was inspired

yesterday was Christmas and I went to church and it was there I was again inspired. here you have my notes put into a stupendous INTENSE paragraph I created for a friend. enjoy :)

basically He {God} has unfathomable grace to give us every single day, BECAUSE we cannot boast in anything BECAUSE if we could boast in anything NO GLORY would be given to the CREATOR of the universe. therefore EVERYTHING do must be for the GLORY of God, BECAUSE apart from him NOTHING IS POSSIBLE but with him EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. therefore, we are CONTENT in all circumstances because we are promised eternal life, where there will be NO more sadness or tears, and this life, despite the love, the grace, the overwhelming joy and inspiration we can experience, this life is INCOMPARABLE to the life we will experience IF we give our lives completely SURRENDERED to Him. we can offer nothing except our HEARTS. and our hearts need to be WILLING and GRATEFUL. when they are these, they understand the need to be HUMBLE and when you are humble you are able to love with the love that OVERFLOWS only from Him. God gives GRACE to the HUMBLE. and when we live the life, when we live the plan that is uniquely ours that we are called to, than we live in a CONFIDENCE in the mighty saviour who's burden is LIGHT and yoke is EASY. He will SUSTAIN us and SAVE us and will give us REST in our SOULS. only when you are BROKEN and BLESSED can you be a blessing to others. when you realize your complete dependence on God, for EVERY.SINGLE. BREATH. for everything, when you realize your lack of INDEPENDENCE, but the sweet rewards of DEPENDANCE, you start to willing recieve the wonderous GIFT of INFLUENCE AND POWER of the HOLY SPIRIT. this is when life starts become an INTENSE JOURNEY that leads you closer to God's heart and to the person God has DESTINED you to be. amen.amen.
that is all. :)

prayer

I believe prayer works, I do. However, what worries me is that sometimes I only believe prayer works when I receive the answer is what I wanted. With that said, we all need prayer for the big things and the apparent 'little things'.

Last week I needed prayer on whether I to get my yellow fever vaccine or not. I got my answer after many people prayed for direction and for God's will to be done. prayers were answered when my neurologist advised me to get it, because she recognized my desire to go to Uganda and the importance of getting the vaccine if I was to do so. So on Thursday (the 15th), I will be getting the vaccine with the expectation of God to continue to keep me healthy, for when I get it I have a high chance of relapsing and making my travel insurance complicated.

Also. Last week my computer crashed and as of today, there is a small chance all my files are going to be recovered. It seems like a small thing to pray for, but I think God is concerned with every aspect of our lives. So pray I will. For the big and the small things in life. and right now I pray my computer, my files at least will be able to be saved, and not at all because my life depends on the tangible objects of this world. I know what my life depends on, and it's not this computer, and I have to be willing to accept whatever the outcome is, having faith, God knows best and God will provide.

the 18th year of my life

Often it seems people look back on their lives or on the last last year and can easily pick out what they should of done different. That they should of said this or not said that. Shouldn't of gone there or definitely was right in being here. As I reviewed and contemplated the 18th year of my life last night I can honestly say it just may have been the best one yet!

Looking back on the many lessons God has taught me, the dozens of new people he brought into my life, the relationships I have had, the journey's I've travelled, the decisions I've made...

I had one feeling: proud.

I could not be more proud of my last year and I can't properly express how excited I am for my future.

In the last year :: the three greatest lessons learned : love and thankfulness and patience

credit (besides God that is :) ) ::

thankfulness: one specific boy patience: ten specific girls love: three specific girls : posse

friends gained: uncountable

experiences : relationships, cultures, food, love of people

and amongst all that : small miracles, amazing grace, love, trust, God's provision in my life

In the next year ::

Following God's plan and call on my life!! 1. Get to Africa 2. work 3. more education?

However, only #1 is for sure in the plan. Lord willing I'll get there and come home and then the other 2 may follow :)

A sincere thank you. thank you if you have been involved in my life thus far. Every single moment has been preparing me for this moment, this 19th year. I was created and born to live this 19th year with the lessons I learned in the last 18, with the love and grace that God has poured out on me. Whether this is in Canada or Uganda or Guatemala I know God has something spectacular in His plan for me this year. My family, my church(es), my friends, my schools, my jobs. You all have had and have your place in my life and have contributed to the person I am today. may the Lord bless you and give you peace. muchas gracias!